The Moment......smh

Growing up through life without a blueprint except for The Blueprint 1, 2, and now 3 aint easy.  I second guess lessons like I aint write the lesson plans for it.  I just be looking for a guarantee in an indefinite world.  And plus those aint my blueprints anyway.  My brother last name Carter...not mine.  So yes this is my admittance to not knowing it all.  No I didn't trip you, but I still didn't prevent the fall.  We spoke recently about it.  You said your leg don't hurt but your heart do.  I don't feel worthy of a man to stand next to you.  I think back to laying next to you.  Looking in your eyes.  Taking in that feeling and you know what I'm talking about.  Deeper than being on top of you. Or on the side of you.  And yes deeper than being in back of you.  I felt it while you was upstairs and I was in the courtyard.  You had a different view so I just picked one of the many Rs and imagined it was yours.

Recent days feel like ages ago since these current events.  Wondering how I'm gonna face you cross my mind but shit I don't even know if you wanna see me.  Part of me wishes this was TV, at least ill have a week till the next episode.  But without asking I know thursdays are now on hold.  Or shit...cancelled forever for all I know.  All I know is that I never meant for any of this to happen.  I was just following true emotions.  Never thinking that I would fuck up the moment.

Nothing to Say........

Silence.....there's nothing I can say to you now. Regardless of feelings. And honestly no disrespect to yours, although in opposition to mine. And please don't flip my words and try and make em negative. I aint the bad guy. I should just "lol" after statements to make it all good. I really don't want to say anything. I'm not a fan of drama. Let me just do what I have to do to get some space in this situation. Just a lil space for me and I'm out this bitch. If I was suppose to stay I would be but bitch......

See now I'm mad. Forgive the word bitch, the feelings are real. Paint your picture, they're your brushes, but fuck your picture. That's how you picture me? That shit aint real. Color me red? Shrink my heart? I should of been heartless. Then you paint a dog's head on top of my shoulders. Is that my reward for being with a bitch? And what type of scenery is that? So dark. You aint seen a dark day with me outside of a storm. Is it my fault we can't communicate anymore......Fuck anymore? That was from the first night. Don't tell me I'm obsessed, listen I'm familiar. You the one been here 20-sumthing years acting brand new.


I told you, but you only hear what you wish I say. I aint never really like your choice of words anyway. But you smiled when you seen me. I seen the goodness of a soul for another.....and that other was me. It was a selfless attraction to me and I reciprocated the emotions. I'm more mirror than animal, but that aint what's spoken about me these days. You speak ill thoughts of me into the universe and expect the world to recreate your prince charming. That nigga is still the same whoever and where ever he/she may be. I've been the same being who u saw a glimpse of escape in. You wanted weeklies and dailies, and I was barely a few monthlies with the right travels. The right travels, not your travels. And not even mine. If there's one thing I hope you get out of this, its shit just is. You can't shine it, nor make it smell good. And just because it came out of you does not make it acceptable with me. That's your shit. I try to keep my shit in the toilet.....u do the same. Here's some air.........freshener

#TeamKanye....FTW

*i wrote this the night of the VMAs.......

Real recognize and u lookin familiar.  By now people should know I'm riding with Kanye on this one.  It wasn't the best shit he cud of done, but he's got a point.  He didn't steal her moment.  She's up there talkin bout she sings country, while the song is pop as hell.  She is another manufactured pop moment. And she is 19, which means she is a grown ass woman.  Running backstage to cry over your VMA moment....FOH.  I rather cry for the lil girls who'll never get a record deal cause the labels only sign recreations of fake pop shit like Taylor.

When u deal with true artists and u put them in the same circles as "pop" stars, then wanna place them over the true artists, what the hell do u expect?  Its like being at a HS talent show and over and over they reward these half ass talents over true art.  Somebody is bound to say something.  Everybody pointing their finger at Kanye cause its easy to point the finger at the black man.  There is a deeper problem going on.  As real artists start to understand that these corporations aint shit, more and more people will start backlashing.

Fuck kanye ova Taylor Swift?  No fuck you Taylor Swift and the Viacom horse u rode in on.  People liked the song.  Fuck that…people like Milli Vanilli too.

Crazy that shit like this still goes on today....

When I see things like this, it definitely brings me back to a humble place.  There are alot of things that I  complain about, but my freedom is not one of them.  And to have your freedom taken away from you for killing your oppressor is one hard pill to swallow.  Sarah Kruzan has been swallowing her pill since she was 16.  At 29 sentenced to life without parole, theres a long road ahead of her before she can be done with that pill.  This shit really sucks.  Welcome to fucking America, where we kill em slowly while theyre still kids.

Neighbors......

This aint the morning....that's the sun going down. This is the beauty before the beast. Wondering who's gonna be Belle tonight. Man I live in the hood hope there aint another Sean Bell tonight. Cops suppose to be ya friend, that aint no friend of me. More like an enemy. Oh I'm wrong, well then call em my frenemy....word to Jimmy. I swear yall don't understand the young black man's plight. I been stopped wearing baggy jeans. But now the thugs wear em tight....I still aint ight. Even the ones with the glasses only see one brother. And it aint just them, I heard some ol heads talking down on us too....word to mother. Speaking this and that about our generation...like we aint the future they the ones we replacing. Want credit but don't wanna give respect and vice-versa. Your lessons are our lessons and remember....vice-versa. Your pride done aged into a mule......jackass. Am I trying to be funny? Why ask? Bet you thinking I'm a smart ass.....You're right. But I'm so much more than that if you got to know me. I'm creative..funny..and can do anything if you just show me. We don't have to run these parallel lines across from each other. Ill turn right here, if you could turn left for a brother. Not look down but uplift your lil brother. Think about how proud we'll make our mother. Whoever that may be....but the point is we're family. Don't blood run through your veins like mine. You blink like I do....two of the same kind. They say is love is love and that's real with no signed paper. I'm living Generation Now....we fell in love with our neighbors.

..pic by blakcars

Print.....Comic Books Unlimited.....

Print has released his latest creation for the masses....Comic Books Unlimited. I had the chance to listen to it earlier......dopeness.

Yea Im biased....Unlimited & Ridin High feat. Capri are my favorites....hahahaha

Shout out to Ibe for producing those bangers......
And shout out to Print for putting such a dope collection together....

Get the mixtape HERE

Picture That.........

Its crazy cause it'll hurt me to be mad at you right now. You pull and push at the same time like I aint human. Babe that’s all I am is a human. Then im a man. Then Im a traveled man. I have been on this road for 24 years and I know it aint easy to understand that. I just need a thought on it. Just ponder my path when you blaming me for not being on yours. We established conversation with the topic being our foundation, and you tell me you aint my shorty. Picture that….literallly…you could relate. I aint asking you to be my shorty. You could keep your legs closed. Just don’t cover that heart. And I know I can be pushing it with the heart, cause the heart is real. And that’s all I was trying to say before. I know “I don’t like restrictions and rules” came out, but your heart should of got what I was really trying to say. Don’t sign off on me, we’re worth more than that. Honestly I told myself to just leave it alone, but im at work and it’s a quarter after eight, Donell Jones comes on and you run across my peripheral. Who am I to disregard your existence? So I started writing and talking to myself aloud. It kinda feels like im talking to you, even though youre no where around and probably not even thinking about Taurean. Maybe you did think about Taurean. Unfortunately only time will tell.........

Ibe & Print.........

Glad we just caught the album. The homey Print got up with Ibe and in 2 days recorded 2 bangers for the Comic Books Unlimited album. Comic Books Unlimited will be out April 13th.

Here is some footage of the process.....




And yes Print will also be on The Generation Now Album.....

Love in the Rain..........

Let's run in the rain.....down a quiet street....on a beautiful night. Let's just run....I don't care where, and it doesn't matter. Just running alongside you would be great. I wish us to hold hands and dismiss any opposing thoughts to our presence. Just smile and run through the drops. Our hearts will be full and yes, our clothes soaked but so what. Imagine a sweet tune in your head. This would be so refreshing.....

Do you wish to join me? Please agree. After I promise we can dry off and return to society's living. I don't know why this thought has come into my head but I do not wish to ignore it. It must be for a reason. It just must....... Give me your hand. The shower outside is just as warm as the bathrooms. As we go I pause and think to myself for a sec......and I grin 1000 men's happiness. All thanks to you......

Just me.......

I am just me. Though I may dabble here and there, I can and will only be me. Don't just accept me. You have a choice, and its cool if you choose not to. Just don't bullshit. Don't call my name then look the other way as if I'm bugging out. I know what I heard. I am just me and that's all I can ever be. Check out my palm. My lines are unique to the core. I have not followed outside of twitter which adds to my uniqueness. Appreciate what you like about me. Help me grow with your talents, if you choose to get that close……

This place wants to force me into a shell. I don't even eat crawfish though. I just want mashed potatoes. My attempts at strength building are downed by the masses. The average never wanna see you supersede them, but they'll still support u if you're dope enough. Life here is a question and you'll never know the answer. This is why one must just live. Disregard the baby on the side of the road....maintain your focus. Look beyond them as you pass them by in the street. Try ya best not to look them in the eye, unless you feel they're worth it. If it turns out they weren't, its cool. Life is also about lessons....